Part of me, wants to say that recently I have felt lost, but I'm not sure if that is the category I want to and can put my feelings under.
everything has been extremely overwhelming and exhausting, not the most optimistic words to use, I know. Despite that, this summer has brought me a lot of happiness, such as meeting somebody I have been friends with for a long while and class as one of the best people in my life, so I can't sit here and say how everything is shitty and nothing good has happened because that isn't true- as much as I may say this.
I also got the chance to go to some beautiful places that I am ever so grateful and thankful for doing because it was a good, refreshing change of scenery and - for a little while - I felt at ease taking photographs of the raw, pure beauty of a certain city/town that I have seen second hand for as long as I can remember.
However, with happiness comes sadness and nothing can ever be okay or fine for a long period of time.
Fall outs, mixed opinions, silence and tension have all been something that I can unfortunately say isn't foreign to me anymore.
It feels as though a lot has changed in what feels like a long period of time, but in reality it isn't. Sometimes, change is good. Change is something that we need to embrace. Things wouldn't change without valid reasoning.
Emotions have been visible and invisible for different reasons, sometimes you need to let it all out and let people know straight how you're feeling, but sometimes its easier to avoid the voices taking over your mind and mask your sadness with a smile, hoping it won't have to be a mask any longer and you can feel how you've dreamt of feeling, even if its for no longer than a day.
Maybe lost isn't the word to describe this, maybe I've just had too much 'me' time and need to find a certain part of me again, or maybe there isn't anything to find and maybe there's a part of me missing that I am yet to discover.
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