4. dear future me,

At the moment, you don't know what the hell you want to do tomorrow, let alone in 5 years time.

You were scared of change and the word makes your stomach twist inside of you, but I am hoping that you've changed and you no longer have that feeling towards the six letter word. I hope that you aspire for change and that everything you do is different to what you did before.

You change every day and I want to befriend the feeling instead of in fear of it.

At the moment, your mind is all over the place, you don't know what to expect when you start your new year in education and you're just at the point in your life where you just feel strange and everything is weird and you don't really understand why you feel a certain way, but you're also not unaware of it. Hopefully, now you don't feel like this and you love waking up in the morning, little things still bug you but you like living instead of sometimes resenting it, and I hope you'll be able to say you love it, one day.

I hope that you don't let people down and you treat them better- not that me right now didn't treat people well, I just hope you respect those worthy of respect and aren't as uptight.-  and I hope you don't take your friends and family for granted and you cherish moments you share with them.
I really hope you've stopped disappointing and letting people down.

I hope you are in a better mind set and do a lot to motivate yourself and have things to do to look forward to and are also achieving things yourself and dreaming small but expecting big.

I also hope that you've lost weight and are happier in your own skin, but still take care of yourself and eat healthy but also have times you eat absolute shit and love it instead of regretting it. 

I hope you're a better me.

 

Love, Rosie